I'm here

I truly thank you from the bottom of my heart for the courage that you possess, the very courage that I've tried for years to master yet failed miserably. When going through tough times in my life I tend to keep things within, surpressing them in hopes that even I can hide the pain from myself and it works for a little while yet in the end I find myself backed against a wall with no way out....so I pray. Sometimes I feel that God is the only one I can really talk to, forcing myself to believe that He's the only person that truly knows my pain. Such a lie I've been telling myself.... the pain that I live is also others pain..... The pain that others endure is my pain....

I commend you for speaking out and you don't know how much it means to me for you to have shared this trying time with me. You probably don't know but when people I truly care about deal with hardships, their trials and tribulations instantly become my own. My heart, mind, and soul instantly are affected by the things they've endured.....you've endured.....

I wish so desperately that I had the words to ease your pain but my heart can't seem to find them. I have attempted to help you with the situation yet I still feel as if there were things that could have been said that weren't; like I should have dug deeper into my soul to find more things within me that could have helped you. But I thank you, your courage has given me the courage to open up more to others who can help me when I'm dealing with the situations of life... I'm sure that God will appreciate this (lol).

A good characteristic that God has blessed me with is the ability to listen. Sometimes that's all people really need is for someone to take the time to listen to what it is they are going through. I want you to know that I am always available to listen. I want you to know that i'm here..........

For you Greg.